I am still undecided about how to present my ideas to the new college. I have failed too much I guess to have any hopes of long term employment with any client. It is sad. At times I wonder why it has to be that way. Always in hindsight i think that the failure was the best thing to have happened but then during the moment, it felt bad and I always wished I could do more.
So it is natural I ponder about my current situation.
I have various strategies:
- be aggressive like before
- by passive like in my new form
- be calculative for long term relationship
the third option seems natural to me. I should do this one.
Besides I have also a new deal, although small in amount, it may lead to a long term relationship, one that matters to me. I like the owner: he is spiritual.
May be karma is bringing all my past followers to me.
I don’t know back of my mind, I feel that a bank will give me a long term contract. I am in no hurry, though.