Missing my life

July 12, 2020
1 min read

Today I am just so, what to say, sad, frustrated, used up, defeated. I see no end to my loss of career.

I just miss my life. That is all.

I was the best at training, consulting. I was successful. I was one the highest paid. I was so important. People waited for me. I was ushered. I was driven. I was respected. I was admired. I was prized. People listened to me.

Now it is all gone. I don’t know if i will ever get it back.

there were the occasional hiccups but that was part of the fun of being successful.

watching the crowd look at you, be moved by you, be inspired, be enlightened, be challenged, that thrill doesn’t come from even posting videos.

Of course i also miss the money which for me meant simply recognition.