Book idea: closer to reality
The idea of writing a book is growing stronger and the direction seems so much clearer. I finally found a book from a literary agent. I realize it is like all my presumptions are shattered. Reading this book is for me as good as being coached. It was what i needed. I realize I have…
Finally, I see books written by me
Something in me is shifting. This holiday season, as usual there will not be much work. After the chat with that person, I really felt a ‘tsunami in me’ was calmed. It is karma. In the past when the internet was not available, people would have to do really silly and risky things to attain…
Theory of dreams
Dreams must be the only mystery I can’t solve. I have been recording my dreams since 3 years daily now but still I have not been able to come up with any theory. With so much data it should be possible but there just seems to be no concrete pattern, causality or even correlation between…
Shift fundamental
Lately I am feeling different at a very fundamental level. I have stopped being concerned, worried &anxious that I will not be able to share my knowledge before dying. I now feel that even in such an eventuality it would not matter. I will be able to take the essence of most of my knowledge…
A great deed
The counseling work I am doing at the college is really tough emotionally. Listening to so much pain at such young age and the additional pain due to the inability to make a diagnosis and treat the issues. I realize my power of detachment come in handy here. There is no way, anyone can even…
I believe in my prophecy
there are so many things I wonder. This is all the there is to my life. I don’t know sometimes I feel that I have a completed my life. And then sometimes I feel that I got even started my life. Maybe both statements are true. But it is this feeling that I have achieved…
Hysterical girl
Yesterday has been a busy day. But it’s the kind of day I like: training & counseling. A case of a girl suffering from hysteria has been on my mind. I think the solutions are clear for her.. Live with it Psychotherapy Behavior , emotional, rational therapy Meditation occultism She has something deeply ingrained in…
New leap in consciousness
I am going through some inner evolution in consciousness: a quantum leap into another orbit of consciousness. I have been through many such leaps and this one is markedly, what should I say, definitive. I just feel I am living the 15th chapter of the Gita: the yoga of the supreme person. I perceive me…
2 mountains
Lately I am at a certain level of consciousness whereby I see myself as a soul looking over my own self & the world around it like a movie knowing it is not me. I feel I have nothing left to do after my past attainments, except 2 mountains to climb that I have failed…
True luxury
It is strange morning today I am in my office in Baneshwar. I feel like doing nothing and I know it is my luxury that even if I don’t want to do anything well I will not talk to this because of that. People my think I am a loser and nothing will stop them…