So I cut all the ties to the possibilities that i could become an entrepreneur. This desire existed from my past life because I owed it to someone. I tried, I failed and I dropped it and that someone is proud of me and happy now.
But now I must go on with my career and it is clear i will be a management consultant/trainer, as I had always envisioned and had been practicing so far.
The question now is in which direction should I take my brand and how? So far I had let others lead me because I had to learn. My learning has come almost full circle and i must thus rise.
It is so subtle that anyone else in my position would not notice the change needed.
so far all the jobs I did were for me to learn certain aspects of management and develop a theory like the theory of motion or relativity. But now I must put my findings on paper and sell my ideas.
Many consultants do this prematurely and end up selling half-cooked ideas. But I have prevented myself from doing so, and thus waited so long. but i should not linger any longer.
My findings need to summarized, and sold. Then new learning will occur and refinements will be made.
To have a career like i had, i had to be born and living in Nepal. A perfect balance was needed. Balance between opporunities, work and free time.