Thought of the day
short write ups containing insights relating to the present
A Banker’s life!
As I was talking about my having no interest in bankers as such, my wife had to give up meeting her parents just because some over smart bosses from HQ wanted to visit. Heaven’s sake why do you guys make hell of other people’s life? I think these people so miserable that they have forgotten…
Facing the truth
It is a complicated thought which I had to write out. I got most of money that was stuck and thus as per my commitment I will pay off my own dues. But I have no liablities in my life except for that one. I will miss owing. But then I have to let go….
A mixed day
My wife is not perfect, nor am I. This is what marriage is, the tolerance of imperfection while thinking one is perfect but the other is imperfect and the feeling being mutual. In a relationship besides marriage, this is unsustainable. Friends will just part ways, work relations will just quit. But marriages are a bit…
In the mind of a modern buddha
Today I am feeling so lazy. I needed some dopamine so i did some online chatting. I want to go swim. As I watch various people today who are in the streets to play holi festival, I realize we are all products of eletric signals and chemicals running in our bodies. When we look at…
swimming
Swimming is my highest luxury. For many it is. I have this luxury again after 2 years of corona. Swimming makes me feel calm and privileged, albeit in various ways depending on the time of my life. There was a time i was so arrogant about my ability and capacity to afford to swim daily….
Renewed
I have truely changed in the last week. The duality was transformed successfully from sex to business. still more programing is needed inside but it is a job done. I am 48. I will be 50 in 2 years. I am just beginning to realize that i have 40 full years to contribute my knowledge…
Teaching an old dog , a new trick
Today has just been a bad day in the sense that i had to ask for many rejections. 3 from potential tenants. 1 about my last training. and another about the fact that still no concrete answer has come about the C-SOLD project. I was filled with cortisol until i made the correct realization about…
At the cliff
Especially today I felt like a new time or new era has come for me. After very long I did not know what to do. The online chatting developed in me a missing quality of humility and removed the fear of rejection. Also it added a skill of babbling, hustling and being shameless. In order…
which way?
I have become amazingly calm. The thoughts of a failed career, even doesn’t annoy me. I am 48, I have achieved enough to be happy even if nothing more meterializes. I am wondering which direction my career will go: will I join a single bank & put my knowledge in use for 1 will I…
Being Pure
I am pensive now. I had let my wild-hood come out safely. Now I am calm, slowly coming back. I just needed to be wild, do crazy stuff, out of my character, be someone I am not. But even then I could not hide my goodness. People will never find what I found: it requires…