It is a complicated thought which I had to write out. I got most of money that was stuck and thus as per my commitment I will pay off my own dues. But I have no liablities in my life except for that one. I will miss owing. But then I have to let go. Many will laugh at this but then this is my life: no tension.
I also had an epiphany about a stress that was bugging me. Why won’t ceo’s of banks return my call and give me a chance to run my idea?
Then I had forgotten to ask myself: why do I want to associate with bankers so much? it is glamorous? it pays well? they pay on time?
I realize no in all counts.
I thought I had lots of common with bankers but I realize it is no more than with kids, of traders. yes I have some things in common but many things are different. I do not like their world of greed, false ego and self-centredness. it doesn’t matter to me whether I am close to them or not.
In my attachment I had forgotten I was not interested in them for more than finding work. Thus I have to let go of this attachment. Work for me is good anywhere as long as I am valued.
I am not in love with bankers, or SME’s or colleges. I am in love with my passion and my talent.
