Momentum
I am regaining my momentum of andrenalin which i had to kill totally on the onset of corona. but i have now learned how to switch it on and off. Until last year i thought i was on a lost cause focussing on customer service, the lowest job. I missed the top positions consulting. However…
A life of cancelation
A 2 day training program was canceled within the next day. I feel a bit demoralized. Training work made me feel important, powerful. I realize it produced a lot of serotonin and oxytocin. There was a also constant dopamine rush unknowing of how the participants will behave. The threat of a bad review always pumped…
Siva lingam state
After attaining the Siva Lingam state where my male and female energies join and rest in equilibrium, I feel a certain new quietude inside of me. The clutter that i used to feel inside of me is gone. It is a very difficult stage that probably no yogi has reached, at least in the way…
Yoga of love
Today I want to write on love or relationship between a boy and a girl. Before I was not evolved enough to understand this attraction. But now I can look at it from a detached point of view like a camera man would observe wild beasts in the jungle interact. Apparently this attraction is genetic…
Lucid Living
Did I tell you that I write down my dreams every night? It has been 1.5 years and have done it every night. After i wake up I get my mobile and write in short form. That can happen upto 6 times a night. then in the afternoon I edit into a readable format. Dreams…
I am a knowledge billionaire
I have this self-inflated idea that I am a billionaire in terms of knowledge for success in life, business and the inner self. Even Bill Gates can’t give money to anyone, so why should i as a knowledge billionaire be different? Definitely i cannot help everyone but I hold the potential. Eventually once I have…
My meditation in the 3rd wave
The 3rd wave of corona has again stopped my career. But now I am not frustrated. I know it was time to complete some unfinished inner business which I did. I have attained samadhi. I don’t get into that state voluntarily but it occurs under various circumstances that I am not fully aware of. So…
I am back
It has been 1.5 years since I have not published on my blog due to some technical reasons. Thanks to the faith of my host provider friend, this blog has survived all those years despite my own thought of killing it. I don’t know where it is going. I began writing on this since 2006…
Meditation innovation again
I made a new innovation in my meditation. It was needed because I had achieved the perfect asana of body and mind. Before I had always something bringing me back to body awareness due to the imperfection in seat, or the way I sat. now I solved those problems. I guess it had to in…
I wish I could guide the jobless ones
It was another day, the same day repeating itself over and over again. Exactly the same. When I was giving training in NBI, I had this vision of napping at the same time. It was the 2nd last training. There was a time when I was earning 25k a day and I was free by…