I don’t miss any people I met before. I am strange. I don’t feel any need to connect with anyone. It is just i know all these relationships are conditional. Unless I gave they would not give and vice versa. yes there was lot of goodwill but again it was conditional. If a condition that was even unspoken was broken, the relationship came to a dramatic end. So i wondered what use is such a relationship.
On the other hand my relationship with my wife and mother is unconditional. Even with my in-laws. I have screwed up many times and they have screwed up many times but the relationship lasts.
I have no interests in harboring wasteful relationships. When they will need me they will come.