I feel totally emancipated today because I deleted everything of my past life like a reset button. It was an action I had to take and there was no other easy way for god to tell me to take this action. My ascended Masters had to use many mediums to convince me to move to the next step of my life. It was hard on me and at the same time it helped me finish all my karmas of past life. I’m sure that they must be some karma in my past lives that I have still to pay for in this life and I will happily pay them.
Moving foward from here is a very long journey and its step I thought I would not have to take in this lifetime but my Masters had other plans and the plans got executed. So here I am now fully focused on my new mission or my only mission. Whatever happened before up till now was to groom me to become this person that I am now and that I have to be in the upcoming days.
After so many days of suffering and pain and agony, despair and torture I finally feel that relief and the healing that is total now. I breathe peace I am ready to face anything that is thrown at me. I think I’m not gonna be afraid of Heights even. Maybe I will live and eat cucumbers and mangoes, which I despise (!) but I don’t think that’s the issue here.
I had to take very tough decisions and there was no other way around it. I don’t know: I feel so much strength in me and so much power which was lacking yesterday and certainly the days before. In this last two months I felt so helpless, powerless, clueless, victimized, trapped but never had I any bitterness or hatred or even a sense of remorse or revenge or even self-pity. And I guess that this is what enables me to be in this state of high energy despite all the shit that is going around in my life at this point.
I feel such a deep sense of joy and freedom. I feel like I’m outside of the jail after those two months. They were horrible days but the source of the pain isn’t gone yet but the effect that it has caused is no more and instead I am here with open arms ready to face the worst of the cases willing to die or live with shame or humiliation and discomfort come what man, should I say. It is this deep sense of certitude and confidence in meaning that I feel is empowering me, charging me and speaking to me.
In many ways I feel like I had been invaded before and now I am invading now but even as I said the enemy, I have no animosity towards the source of my suffering which was nothing more than the fulfillment of my karma of this life and past livee combined to achieve a stage of my new being for me. Like all the synchronocities in my life this event also was designed in the grand way.
Now at this time I see myself gracefully imagining the worst things thrown at me and me still not bulging. I feel totally unaffected even if I was to be tortured without the permission to die: I would still accept it and not complain. It is the hug amount of confidence that I have in myself now. it’s amazing confidence that is in me that I find hard to understand.
I feel an immense strength in me I don’t know that it’s not illusion or even a delusion but it’s the permanent aspect of me that this trauma was able to carve out from me. I will not be doing too much on it or on this stage of immense power that I feel the worst thing happened to me. Anything else it’s just a petty thing that can happen to me. I lived through the worst now I don’t really care and I’m prepared for everything and anything. My perpetrator is might thing that they have got the upper hand but the universal law doesn’t occur that way and they will have to live with the consequences of their actions while again I forgive them and it is not my problem.
