Something liberating is occuring in me after the wart on my face was removed. Warts represent a period of frustration in a past time. In my case I think it started during or after my days in acetravels.
Prior I was a happy go lucky type. After Ace, I became rigid, I had to: I had to have fixed goals, achieve them & to be frustrated if one failed was natural & expected.
Over the years I associated with ambition people & how could not frustration have rubbed off on me? It must have.
But lately, I don’t want to be frustrated. I want to accept what comes & strive to achieve what I can’t avoid & thus not seek things for incompatible desires like power, status & acceptance.
That is a big shift & not easy. But I feel this is the new me:
- accepting whatever comes
- working hard on what is in front of me
- not seeking illusions as soon as I can recognize them
