what if I was born into my current life of true luxury instead of life on an aspiring couple rising from poverty to opulence?
I learned how to use leisure from french aristocratic family of my best friend. Maybe they just reminded me.
This early life before 42, I struggled like everyone & to me is was especially hard because I had many missions:
- Building a career like everyone
- coping with my spiritual growth
- completing my sexual development
- taking care of my house having lost my father early on
- saving a marriage with a wife lost to her shadow
- ambition to be the richest man
Then we built this new house & everything changed over several years.
- money became surplus always
- I attained samadhi & the final stage of om sai
- the chapters of sex, finally turned to those of green learning
- my wife tookup the leadership role in the house
- my wife got her disease removed & along with it the shadow
- I was bitten by the red monkey, began 2 companies, tried & failed & I’m so happy because there’ll never be a “what if?”
Now you tell me: what more can a man want? I can’t.
Yet I still have half my life to live so I will have to “want” something. But I’m not rushing.
