As I wait in the airport, may be 1000 people are also here with the same objective and problems. It is noisy. But strangely I find myself calm and at home because the mental noise inside me is equaled.
Lately I am having these big bouts in my head. Before I didn’t know what it was and what to do with it. But this year after 17, I was able to answer these questions.
They are a function of my psyche that urges to connect & unite with various aspects of the universe.
At the foremost it is my male energy wanting female energy.
Then it is my desire to influence .
Then it is non-sexual and without objective like a stone falling under gravity.
At times I need to connect to my surrounding : either where it is filled with people or in pure quiet & wilderness.
At times I need to connect & unite with the universal energy.
At such moments I needed to get out and leave the world where my mental function revolve around planning, analysis and deciding.
When the urge to Connect & unite comes, I must leave everything else and it is like a climax. The union becomes complete and I feel bliss : the quiet after the tornado.
There is marked enhancement in my cognitive power along with more confidence about my divinity. This is supported by external events.
Sometimes years pass without that compelling force.
This time I have chosen to never shut it down and take it parallely with my other functions.
