I wonder still what could be the purpose of my life. It is not that i would like to know now. It would be too overwhelming. May be it is just to be around my family so that they can finish their life’s karma. Even if it is such a small purpose, it is fine as long as i get to enjoy this lifestyle. May be is bigger and it is to help few people make money through my skills. It is also fine as long as I am paid well enough.
yes when you come to see life is such granulity, it becomes quite boring but i guess it is what it is.
I wished one time to change the world, be the greatest man, the richest man. But I guess it was out of my own character. but definitely my life’s purpose could be bigger. But whatever it is, i know i don’t want to make a mess of my life and that of others around me.
I rest in the bliss of my existence. If there is anything i can do for the universe in this state, i will, if not just forget me. I’ve got 50 more years to live and i will pass them fulfilling my above two mission towards my family and community.
But 50 years for a man of my realization is eternity. the masters won’t let me go without doing major jobs for humanity. I can’t refuse also. I won’t also. But whatever i will do i will do with purity. I need no followers, no wealth , no fame, no power. Just let me be, in my samadhi i have everything. why should I want a toy car when I have the real car?
