superity complex
Maybe I suffer from a very superior complex. I mostly think I am above others in terms of ability, knowledge, intention. But I don’t meet anyone, so this is not a problem. When I meet people it is too short a time for these things to come out & in training or counseling I conceal…
Worry about the world
Today has been a bit depressing as it daunted in me that it would a long time before I get paid work. But again I recalled that for me this was not anything new. I have been in and out of this unemployment for so many times. The difficulty and pain is for all the…
some ideas
After many days, I disrupted my routine by waking up late. I was full from last night’s dinner & also tired from heavy workout. I will complete my exercise regiment in the afternoon onwards. Sitting at the verandah, watching birds on the trees is relaxing. Various thoughts came this morning. I could become a video…
the world has changed
May be the world was never like this. i just feel it is a reflection of what is inside me. my calmness, my serenity all around me. the world stopped. everyone is wrong for the first time. people learning to be canceled upon people learning to have to justify their existence people needing to look…
Answers
i had a strange vision. myself as a smiling king of the world. There are several questions of which the answers are hidden from me because it would not be possible to live on earth knowing these answers: who was i in my past lives? What is the purpose of my life? I am not…
the perfect body position
As i was lying on my armchair during my nap, i realized i was struggling to let go. I designed the chair perfectly through all these years: my full body is at total rest the lower back is supported the neck is supported the buttocks are just low enough the thighs trapped the calves cushioned…
A day in lockdown
Today is cold after many days of sunshine. I stopped worrying about the lockdown and I am taking as a part of life. Every body’s life is affected. Before it was only mine. I was sorry for the others. But I realize they too had to go through the same awakening process. To me because…
the lake settles down
after 28 days of lockdown, I feel that I have written and published all that the time demanded. So here i am not knowing what to publish now. i had a nice long shower. my body feels totally relaxed. I am just wondering why i feel so special but nothing to substantiate outside except the…
The perfect game theory
this lockdown is going to be a long haul. many people will not only lose their money but they lose their minds. it will be the greatest test on humanity ever because suffering was never so universal ever. there is escaping. it is the perfect game theory scenario: mix with other and you might catch…
I worry about myself only now onwards
This corona crisis has not added any problems to me but I am just worried about others. When i stopped worrying about others, there is nothing about this lock down that is against my flow of life. I had retired. I was always isolated. I have dried all my desires. I have enough. In this…