Attaining the supreme state
i have made some major progress in my spiritual life. it is undeniable that without this corona virus i could not have achieved those stages. if it was not for this crisis, i would be running around the country, earning more money. I have attained the supreme state that the scriptures have talked about but…
12th level
I have made immense progress in my meditation. Before i used to talk about the 10 levels. After that i roamed around many sublevels not really knowing what to look for. I could now call these levels , as 11. Since a long time I have reached the level from which the blessings have been…
Tears dropping
tears are dropping from my eyes now as i recall my father after a conflict filled walk-tour with my own son. He can hate me and i can hate him but we both will be there tomorrow to reconcile. But my father died after conflicts without me being able to know him or even reconcile….
diary: feeling daisy
I am feeling a bit dazed. Still no paid work in sight. but I am happy that i solved the issues in my property and a fixed stream of rental income is coming, albeit by half. I am still angered or disappointed by the tenant with whom i had a clash few days back. but…
Concern about my talents
i had been having a strange feeling or thought lately. I have so much talent, so much knowledge. i have read so much, i have so much wisdom. All this has been useful to me. it has made my life blissful, almost immortal. but i am kind of sad that the world is not able…
Felt Worthless but Tara saved the day
Today i was really feeling for worthless because i was not able to earn any cash. I am leading a meaningful life, i am doing work, i am benefiting over 200 people everyday but it is all for free. there was a time when i used to earn so much money for just being present…
My vision for post corona virus career
After over four months i lost my career, with no new direction, i finally found a valid direction to take my career. Whatever i do, i always knew it must be sustainable and it must fill my whole being. I didn’t want to go the way the other trainers went, with online classes. that is…
That feeling of goodness
Two days back at night, i felt so bored. It felt life was repeating itself. i missed by travel, the admiration of clients, the interaction with people saw me as important. Then i sat in meditation. suddenly i developed the same feeling i had missed. the boredom just went. till today in my normal state…
A sadness
I feel shocked and sad at how my tenant reacted after a tough negotiation session. To me it was just part of the job of being a landlord. but my tenant took it personally and just decided to leave. I felt betrayed, but more sad at this person’s foolishness. Also there is no doubt i…
Cool about life again
As the world is opening up after the corona virus, i feel more normal myself. My circumstances have not changed. Still no work and no orders in sight. But i am not making a big deal. I will be working slowly in finding new work. In my dreams last night I was in my university…