At times I wonder if i am not wasting my life away. with my intellect and creativity and leadership power, i could have done so much more like continuing with a company and make it as big as it could get. But i would have to team up with greedy and unethical people. It would have dislodged my bliss, so it was a straight ‘no’.
I have no regret but a doubt is still there: what if I had met the right people who could make use of my talent to its full extent? unfortunately I am too different for anyone to be able to figure out what to do with me.
But if i had to choose with between :
- certainty to greatness among men but with bliss in oblivion
- certainty to infinite bliss among gods but with greatness in oblivion
I would choose the same bliss in every life-time. Not that i believe in a world of gods. it just means a world other than the one we see on TV and the internet.
Lure of being a billionaire
I can’t even handle the few millions I have, I don’t want to have the burden to spend billions, invest them, then re-invest them in this perpetual machine of dissatisfaction, lack, unhappiness, excess, status. F*ck off. I don’t need that life even if came for free through birth.
yes of course the pictures like the above makes us drool the life of the billionaires. But should i live a life of deceit, neglect, irresponsibility, unending liability, greed , constant fear, loss of freedom so that one day a jerk like me sees a pics that another jerk took of my consolation prize, thus feeling lower than me, wishing he could have a piece of my life? F*ck off!
If i want to explore the sea, I will use a cruise ship: thanks.
So being a billionaire is no more in my agenda, not because i don’t know how which was true until a few months ago. As usual in my life, once i know the game, I quit it. So i figured out the game of billionaires, so I dropped it because i was not willing to pay the price: my soul.
How will my story end?
Frankly i don’t know. I have made fun of every rules of success of men:
- quit jobs
- quit partners
- listen to my heart
- not to be insecure and care about security given by law
- quit my own entrepreneurship idea after 2 years
- not to be up-to-date with current news
- retire at 42
- position myself as a lone philosopher on social media
what awaits me at the end of the tunnel, i don’t know. Definitely there will be :
- no pension
- no dividend
- no stocks
- no lottery wins
But everything else is possible, things that I can’t think of now but i can only broadly categorise:
- immense learning
- immense wealth
- contact with great personalities
- immense impact on society
- immense bliss
