Today was like yesterday, yesterday was like the day before yesterday and so on since the last 6 months. Amazingly I don’t feel bored, instead I fee alive, I feel real. Only thing I miss as I have been writing earlier on is only the occasional work. But if I had a choice this new boring but spiritual life or the old exciting and material life, I would have chosen the former.
Every day at his time between 6pm to 7.30pm I work on my computer in my hidden spot where no one disturbs me or I don’t disturb anyone. I listen to romantic songs, which songs are not about love anyway. Every time I am transported into the past or love for my wife.
In this life I had a very active love life with inevitable failures.
May be this is how I would define my life. One in which I attempt great things but I fail and thus am not entangled. The only entanglement I got into are my wife and my career. Both I have no regret.
So this brings me to the point I want to write about today. I chose this birth, this place, this time. I complain that I am under appreciated that no one recognizes me. This is exactly what I needed to even reach the level I am now. I have achieved what I am today simply because no one bothered about me, and simply no one followed me. Even the few who tried I managed to piss them off.
It was not difficult for me to choose the right birth to lead a life of action, and success. But I didn’t want that.
