Excited and energized
Today I feel more excited, actually elated, hopeful, determined. I feel young, ready to take on the world. i feel i am 30 and starting my career all over again. May be it was the dreams i had last night that boosted my energy. Most likely it is an indication that things have changed. I…
Being a husband
When all the world is out of work, bankers including my wife are super busy. I don’t know i feel left out. it is natural. At times i feel i am losing my self-respect being out of work. not only that: knowing that my career as a trainer is almost over as the recession and…
being a father
The hardest part of being unemployed is that there is no where to go. Before i was on trip at least twice a month, meetings, local training, calls. now nothing. Then it is about having to live with my son 24 hours. my mother is somehow understanding. But this kid is in his teens and…
Unemployed for 4 months
It has been a very long time i have earned a single rupee. my last job was in March. 4 months. I had a job on pipeline but the client must have backed out due to cost cutting on their side, i understand. So i can easily another 6 months with no work at all….
Accepting life
After publishing a video on missing life, i feel i have exposed myself naked to the world. I guess it will help many others open up. What is done is done. Outside it is raining after a sunny day. I had a relaxed day, as usual. I realize that i was feeling trapped with my…
Missing my life
Today I am just so, what to say, sad, frustrated, used up, defeated. I see no end to my loss of career. I just miss my life. That is all. I was the best at training, consulting. I was successful. I was one the highest paid. I was so important. People waited for me. I…
Forced Spirituality
Every day I am Changing. my mind is becoming more fixed, less disturbed. This situation of destoyed economy has been best for my spiri tual growth. However I’d have been happy if like before the world wasn’t disrupted. I could not have achieved this progress without this disruption, not at 46. I’d have to wait…
crisis without end
2020 seemed a good year but at the 7th month, the economy has been destroyed. what seemed essential now seems unwanted. Anything else like luxury or even learning is like slime : no body wants them. The impact of the generation Z is the worst I think. In the most formative years of the lives…
Destruction of my career
Corona Virus & social distancing as I knew destroyed my training career . l really miss those days. l was the best. But it is pointless to ponder over bygone days. Consulting too will be impacted but I foresee a long prosperous career in it. It will take some time though. This destruction of my…
Jealous of those who have paid work
The lack or absence of paid work, paying clients got me so frustrated today. Every day i drop my wife to her job. I feel like a driver. That job too is not bad: i could live being a driver. Driving means cleaning the car inside and out the rubbish and dust left by passengers….