God’s war
There was a time I thought I would be the only one to be facing this nothingness. I am just shocked that now billions of people are in the same place I am: uncertain with cancellations ambiguita yes VUCA (volatality, uncertainty, confusion, ambiguity) In one way I feel a secret happiness that finally these proud…
sleep pattern changing
Lately my need to sleep has decreased eventhough I am physically more active. I wake feeling to have slept enough at 4. Should I wake up & make a routine till 5:30? What to do for 1.5 hrs? Read write no way I’m going to browse internet meditate again But again I don’t know what…
continuous blessings
Yesterday I started at the 17th level in congregation with all other masters. It’s quiet as usual. Then I recieved the first blessing followed by about 10 continuous jolts on the crown, stomach. After about 30 min I was exhausted even physically but I continued & one last blessing came. Then it was quiet. Later…
16th and 17th level
The meditation continue to be full of blessings at the crown of the head. I got used and less fearful. I think i crossed the 16th level: focus in the self 17th level: congregration with many of the ascended masters some rishis, some scientists, some kings. I am transported in a restful stage where I…
writing – my best friend
as I listen to old french songs I realize where my sentimentality and poetry comes from. I didn’t realize it but my childhood has influenced me in many ways. It is not that i relate to the french life of high individualism but it is the may be the place or the aura of the…
Communion of mine
Yesterday I recieved over 6 blessings in the crown area. It was a bit scary because i feared what if this made me go crazy. they were very powerful extending to the stomach area. My mom and wife call others. But i have no one to call. I don’t want to because no one can…
Corona crisis continues
As the corona virus causes the lockdown to lengthen, it is taking a toll on everyone. Myself I realized that my sadness yesterday was may be due because some people or one person related to me in past lives died from corona virus. or may be it is more a global feeling of empathy for…
my motivation is not
I think I am afraid that my knowledge will never be used by the world. yes that is a big problem. I have no motivation to prove myself. I did it once. I earned enough to have the life of leisure I needed. So I don’t see how the world can benefit from me if…
Counseling myself
Bad news have a negative effect in all and me too. With the corona virus, it is bad news after bad news. may be it why i am so sad. I had a dream, no a plan. To spend the coming 5 years in nepal and then travel around the world, to explore the different…
Communion
I am close to something in my meditation. Close to what? I don’t know. I am not affected by social isolation because i am in communion with the unseen presence. The whole time I am aware but it is in the time of mediation at night I am in total oneness. So much blessings have…