People have a problem that they don’t see life pass. I have the problem that life is moving at my speed. it is as if i had a speed control button.
To what use to put this incredible mind now freeing slowly itself from the clutches of the soul?
It is has if i had died but the body and mind are left behind. I fucking don’t care, i like to say because my life as an eternal soul is secured and achieved. But i am not dead.
If i was dead :
- i would not have to think about how to put my mind to use
- how to use the time available for me
- i would not have to worry about having to make a living
- I would not have to learn
- I would not have to enjoy life
So as a mind and body, i still need to do the above work. It can’t stop.
However before I had to:
- find out how to free my soul while embodied
- make the mental frameworks necessary to enable the liberation of my soul
- make sure i was not entangled in activities that would prevent me form attaining samadhi
- finish karma that were preventing me from reaching samadhi
- make peace with the conflict between mind and soul
It was a very busy and tumulteous time.
