distinct types of consciousness
i am achieving lots of progress in my inner life. i have clearly mastered distinct levels of consciousness: conscious state during exercise unconscious state during nap superconscious state during meditation sub-conscious state during sleep of course i don’t exactly know if they are the states that i said because i don’t have the tools to…
Frustration
Yesterday i was so frustrated. Living 24/7 with the same people, in the same place, had its toll in me. i realized that i had a great life. Travelling at least 3 times a week. i loved the thrill, the anticipication, the disappointments, the delights, the surprises, the newness. it was all part of the…
Disco days
As i listen to the disco music, i am taken the memory lanes amidst the days in singapore when i used to disco’s every weekend. those were the days. they will never come back. not only because of the corona virus, but after i got married that is quite out of the question to swing…
Happy after many days
Today I feel comparatively happy. i started the daily evening shower routine i received a call from an important client to meet i finally found a way to clean my windows i had not done since i moved in 6 years ago i made the video on leadership that is able to trap all my…
Missing the old life
i don’t know why this corona came, who it benefited. may be no one. but it benefited by spiritual journey. the leaps i made i could not make otherwise. i would have had to wait till i was 70 years old: i could not stop while the world was moving. but then the world stopped,…
Next level in meditation
Something amazing has happened yesterday in meditation. I was really above the body in the upper part of the brain. i think it has been because of the practice of pratyahara everyday in my nap. it felt both powerful and scary. if i continued upwards i might lose awareness like i would be in sleep…
another day at home
It was another uneventful day at home. A small hiccup with my wife was the only anomaly. these are unpleasant but they seem necessary in retrospect. It reminds me of the hellish time i had before her operation. All that mood swing, personality disorders were linked to a medical condition. It is just amazing. however…
the load must lead somewhere
Slowly i am getting used to this lockdown. it is a natural state for me. the only difference and awkwardness is the whole world got into this state with me. Even if the world will get back to life after the lockdown, my life will not change for more months. i don’t know what work…
Random thoughts in lockdown
today my brain is fully learning mode. So it feels i am full in the brain. indeed I am reading so much. the deadline of the lockdown is approaching and i wonder what will happen. when the virus will go away, it will be a world unprecedented. I am listening to party songs. I had…
Getting used to lockdown
i wonder where all this time is taking me or what is is transforming me into. today only i listened to 5 hours of book. i read 500 pages in two days. it is crazy. my body is fit with 5 hours of exercise. i have a 1.5 hour nap. meditation at night to enter…