Yesterday night i felt a deep depression with my career like a in a total silence with no immediate work at sight. It was compounded by the fact that i have enough income and asset not to have to work. In addition I solved any problems that there were. So I am 45, rich, no work, no problem, in bliss, with divine peace.
I just felt i was ready to die. What work was there left for me? Yes only my family would miss me. I felt no difference being alive or dead as i had found the ultimate truth of existence and my life was proof of it.
In this mood I went into samadhi.
This meditation state has now become out of my conscious control like dreams. It has its own life.
today as i moved out of the body, I tried to emanate energy and absorb energy but this time, the lesson was different. I was:
- to go various places
- enter people through the cranium and experience their lives
I did it for three people in various parts of the world. I saw their past memories, and their lives. It was interesting. I felt different.
the earlier depression slowly vanished and as i detached totally from my mind, it ceased to exist.
As i came out I realized i didn’t have to die. Anyways what would be the difference? What people think, I don’t care. Moreover I still have so much left to do. there were other priorities like mastering samadhi first.
then I made sure my soul did not go the mind and get frustrated by its limitations.
Now for 1 hour a day, my soul is has good as my body is dead and it can do whatever it pleases.
this is enlightenment of the highest order where body, mind and soul live in harmony.
I am taking things slow. My mind is now free to grow and my body free to live and maintain its weight and routines.
