Today the internet has become easy. There was a time of dial-up. Many must have forgotten. But tell you what.. I have been still living in that dial-up generation. This is the story why.
Others can relate my story to their struggle to overcome a habit which they don’t know if it is good or bad and can’t figure it out. It could be smoking or it could be procastinating, drinking, sex, drugs, demotivation, non-commitment, fear, shopping, etc.
People call it ‘chatting’. But to me this act of going on a chatroom, going through the list of people on the room, choosing a nic to pm or im, then ‘send’ing that opening line, waiting for a response, asking ‘asl’, and then moving on from there, was never about a need for me to chat. At the beginning 10 years back, I enjoyed talking about hobbies, life but later on I realized that this medium had a better purposes.
It took be 10 years to discover why ‘chatting’ is good for me and for me not the find it morally wrong.
This practice has helped shape me in more ways than anyone can possibly think.
I just think that god is my coach and he designs all these activities to make me into the ‘great man’ that I am destined to be.
Face it. Noone became great without ‘being bad’ or ‘doing bad’ at one point in their lives. The difference in the normal ‘bad person’ and this ‘would-be great man who appears bad now’ is comparable to a permanent resident and a tourist.
I’ve been a tourist in so many bad habits, bad practices. Things that I will take to my grave, in Nepal we say, things that will be cremated with me body.
Tell you what: I still regret for the wrong I did to people. Luckily I can count them in my hands. I’m not done with them. When the comes, I usually get back to them and seek somekind of forgiveness.
So here I was struggling with ‘chatting’. In Nepal too we get broadband, wifi and ADSL. Also they are cheaper than dial-up, not only more convinient. I still stuck to dial-up because I wanted to make it expensive and difficult for me to fulfill my urge of what people call ‘chatting’, which I told you means something totally different to me.
To me it means, ‘connecting’. When I am in that chat room, I feel a spiritual oneness with the world.
Then it means ‘being aggressively initiative in mixing with people’ too. I am extreme extrovert and I did not realize it until I was invited to conduct a 30 min workshop of 1200 students in a theartre. I realized I was born for channelling energies of the masses.
Then it means, ‘selling’. I found that i love selling. The harder the product/service/vision/concept and the more difficult the potential market, the more I enjoy. I love the frustration, the rejection, the leadons’ , the ‘SALE’, the affectionate bond after the sale is made. I realize this selling is part of me and in every of my cells. I realize that I love to sell what people need to have but don’t know yet. I need to find people who are seeking at the sub conscious level. Selling is not for the money for me. It is for the impact. I see myself as a Buddha who sold Buddhism or as Christ who sold Christianity to the world.
‘Chatting’ give my incessant, burning, mad and unrefined passion to sell, a medium to balance out, fine tune and grow healthily without hurting anyone.
After 10 years I discovered the truth about my unterminable inclination to ‘chat’ or ‘connect’.
Now I am mature enough to buy ADSL connection. Good for my pocket.
I am 36 years old, earning well, having fulfilled all my ambitions (becoming a highly successful national level management consultant/motivator/trainer/writer) but , I still don’t know who I am? What’s my destiny?
The cosmos is directing me to start a company called ‘SellPro’. Time is coming. For what? I don’t know. But I can feel the doors of new destiny opening once again …
