At a crossroad of life

December 27, 2022
3 min read

I am feeling really strange lately. I want to start being active and market myself. On the other hand I just want to go on messenger so far waiting for the world to act first.

I’ve been having dreams are you unable to move forward with my knees frozen. Then another dream i see open parks. Today I cant see where my career is going. without trying anything I reached this far. I Guess I’m just tempted to continue in this way.

The world maybe he thinks I’m weak and unexplainable go to start that has been going on since I was young, so it doesn’t matter to me. Yet something in me is telling to do something please not dramatic but maybe just to be prepared and I am being prepared.

Nobody has it easy and may I got it the easiest.

I don’t know what I want . It is sure that I don’t want power like I did in the earlier days of my career. It is very clear now that whatever I do I do it for curiosity and for love. I don’t want to be so busy. I don’t want to have to take any responsibilities am I asking for too much with the impossible?

It’s not that I’m lazy . It is that I am in tune with the divine. especially with the book that I’m writing I feel closer to my final destination. Somehow I just know that band good times oh comedy and I will have to accept the bounties that are due to me whether I like it or not. I have been delaying this arrival the gifts for as long as I could. And have explained how this possible in my book. So it is so beautiful. I have seen where my masters my friends are. before it was not clear now it is so clear that anybody who’s able to withhold disbelief and has got some logic can understand. I know i will become one of the ascended masters. This life is the springboard for me. Yes there is so many things I need to do before I finish this life. I’m not worried at all. It is just that I’m confused about the direction of my life currently. In fact if it was to be clear it would be totally boring also so I guess it’s OK.

So I have finished part one of my book and that is elating me . I am working on the Part 2 and I have developed the framework.

I will always follow my heart. currently it is telling not to push on the accelerator, so I will not. instead I will continue to follow the wind that is pushing me.

I don’t wish that somebody help me get out of this rut now. this is what I am and I have nothing to worry about. if I succeed or fail it doesn’t matter because I have already achieved whatever I was on earth for.

I just realized that the analogy of me driving the car is not correct. instead the analogy should be that I am sitting in the sea of life and my direction is determined not only by my will or the road but by the winds and undercurrents. Wait for the world to weigh me, before it makes the final judgment of who I am. as I told you earlier it doesn’t matter to me but it matters for that mission of mine.