I wonder what will happen as the corona virus is creating more havoc. I am sorry for the people who:
- are dead
- are infected
- dont’ have enough to eat
- are separated from loved ones
- lost their jobs
- lost their businesses
But I am also sorry for myself because:
I will have to wait for the world to get on its feet to get paid work.
I have no other problem. Even more: I am experienced in living in isolation. It is even my preference.
So at times I feel I am selfish. But this is my reality.
When I was jobless which was many times in my life, I was always consoled that the world was doing great without me and that there was something i could do of value that would get me a job. it worked out as such many times. but now the world has collapsed and will rise with great difficulty.
this is because, the money is there but the way the psyche of billions crashed can’t ever be raised to the height of earlier days. That is what I am afraid of. This crisis is doing what no master living could ever do: transform people inside out.
