Listening to songs on youtube take me back to days of many years ago i had not remembered. Each correct song brings back old memories and feelings, where i had left off.
- my singapore days
- my life before 12 in paris
- my budhanilktha days
Not much resonance on:
- ku days
- st xaviers days
- 2004 back to nepal days
- marriage days
why? I guess in the earlier set there was lots of pain.
In those 3 periods of life i suffered the most because i gained the most.
singapore days is mainly marked by my eternal debt to steve morris, the pulls from the spiritual world mixed with the material world. but in this period i gained so much that formed my identity for ever.
Paris was time of living in a foreign country having to keep a head straight, yet so much things to learn that i could not learn once back in nepal.
Budhanilkantha days were needless to say the harshest. I have almost no good memories. why so much pain? but again i learn all i needed to survive and fight. To this day no human relationship seems out of negotiation.
I almost had forgotten how hard a life i had as a child, an adolescent. not only that i lived with so many layers of delusions. it was a remarkable life.
if it was not for this lockdown i would have recalled these very important moments. When i think that billions of people just die never having looked back at their lives, forget in the minute details i have done.
I makes me think then how much must have i lived in the past lives then. All those memories gone? or may be i processed them and as a result i am living think wrinkle free life for me, my wife and my mother.
wow!
