I have had a life principle always with regards to spending money. I will not spend money that I have not earned despite having lots of savings and other income.
As a result i feel temporarily poor. but feeling this way is refreshing, and humbling.
If I took money from my rentals from my mother, I could but then it would disrupt my sub-conscious mind. I must create this scarcity in order to work. Otherwise i will not work.
I have so much bliss it is difficult for a person like me to have any ambition because everything is already fulfilled inside. It is like a billionaire being challenged by another billionaire to earn more. there is not much point the former will think.
Yet I must go on with my life. We all must go on.
