Today I didn’t feel like working out in my normal routine. After many years I allowed myself to be lazy. That was a long time back. I was always alert and always talked myself out of the laziness to do something productive. today I allowed myself to lose 30 min into mindless activity of being unsure of what to do next.
But still i couldn’t stop my habit and i am back on track. I ran my 30 min route. I took my 3-1-3-1-3-1 or 12 min hot cold shower and now I am blogging.
My body just needed a few more hours of break, I knew.
Living without plan
I look at my calendar and there is nothing. Sometimes I get scared but I know it will get filled. Yet i would be unhappy also if i knew what was ahead of me till next year. The life i chose is one of my own making. I chose not to own a company even after trying. I don’t want to be going to the office. I don’t need such meaningless work. I am happy being a freelancer.
The type of life I live is filled with uncertainty. I refuse to follow the norm and this has become my normal state.
What will happen next? i don’t know. But i guess there is no point in me to try figuring out. I am happy to revel in this uncertainty.
I wish
I wish there was a bit certainty in my life, though. But I am not sure. I don’t know what i waiting for me today, tomorrow and certainly next year. I am no one to answer to.
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3 months prior to my 45th birthday, I am definitely a newly self-realized man who has taken shed an identity that could not be his, in my case that of an entrepreneur.
I was lucky i was wise so I didn’t lose much.
I am back into freelancing, the game i know and love best.
