These few passed days i felt a kind of resignation with life. I was not happy in state of consciousness:
- waking
- free
- busy
- sleeping
- samadhi
- exercise
- reading
- training
- earning
- not earning
- sleepless
- sleepful
- dream
- napping
I found a fault in all. What then did i want? death? That would be even more boring. but i felt at least i would not have to:
- be productive
I think this is the most peculiar charateristic of life.
Then as per my routine I sat in samadhi.
then i became liberated from this burdensome feeling of being alive. Yes i still have to be productive or do karma but it didn’t both me anymore. In one hour i was totally free.
The next day after samadhi, I found total relaxation in all three levels.
There is so much to be explored in samadhi now that the foundation has been laid.