As the corona virus causes the lockdown to lengthen, it is taking a toll on everyone. Myself I realized that my sadness yesterday was may be due because some people or one person related to me in past lives died from corona virus. or may be it is more a global feeling of empathy for […]
Friday, April 3, 2020
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I think I am afraid that my knowledge will never be used by the world. yes that is a big problem. I have no motivation to prove myself. I did it once. I earned enough to have the life of leisure I needed. So I don’t see how the world can benefit from me if […]
Friday, April 3, 2020
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Bad news have a negative effect in all and me too. With the corona virus, it is bad news after bad news. may be it why i am so sad. I had a dream, no a plan. To spend the coming 5 years in nepal and then travel around the world, to explore the different […]
Friday, April 3, 2020
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I don’t know what is more depressing to me at present in the corona virus crisis: that i will not have work for a long time that billions of people in the world will have no work for a long time it is scary to think this way. So I don’t know whose plight is […]
Tuesday, March 31, 2020
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The hardest thing about being happy and successful is the hard work and motivation level it requires. No one is happy and successful by accident. My videos are taking an eternity to get traction. Every body would have given up. But I know that there is nothing else I would rather do and that the […]
Tuesday, March 31, 2020
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What has the world got to give me? Or maybe it is the other way round: what do I have to give the world? I am frustrated or maybe I am scared of the upcoming future. Billions of people have got to get back to work for me to get work. Then again I don’t […]
Monday, March 30, 2020
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AS i think of the results from my videos I feel frustrated at times, everyday for 1100 times because so few people are appreciating and even less even caring to see it. When will this world be interested in what I have to say?
Friday, March 27, 2020
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The lockdown and having the whole family 24 hours around me, is taking its toll on me. At least I have a big house. But still i find it hard to ignore when my son does detrimental things or does not do productive things. So I nag him and of course he retaliates like any […]
Sunday, March 8, 2020
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Strangely I am no more afraid, worried or perplexed about my career like upto only 2 months ago. It is a premonition of a secured & estabished career ahead.
Sunday, March 1, 2020
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I am at that transitionary phase of life where I don’t want to keep doing the same routine but also don’t want a new routine. For all my life, such decisions were never mine to initiate, process & take. Although I was the driver, something else drove me. If it was not so I could […]
Saturday, April 4, 2020
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