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Jealous of those who have paid work

Wednesday, July 1, 2020

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The lack or absence of paid work, paying clients got me so frustrated today. Every day i drop my wife to her job. I feel like a driver. That job too is not bad: i could live being a driver. Driving means cleaning the car inside and out the rubbish and dust left by passengers. […]


Friday, June 26, 2020

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Yesterday i was so frustrated. Living 24/7 with the same people, in the same place, had its toll in me. i realized that i had a great life. Travelling at least 3 times a week. i loved the thrill, the anticipication, the disappointments, the delights, the surprises, the newness. it was all part of the […]

Disco days

Thursday, June 11, 2020

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As i listen to the disco music, i am taken the memory lanes amidst the days in singapore when i used to disco’s every weekend. those were the days. they will never come back. not only because of the corona virus, but after i got married that is quite out of the question to swing […]

Happy after many days

Thursday, June 11, 2020

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Today I feel comparatively happy. i started the daily evening shower routine i received a call from an important client to meet i finally found a way to clean my windows i had not done since i moved in 6 years ago i made the video on leadership that is able to trap all my […]

Missing the old life

Monday, June 8, 2020

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i don’t know why this corona came, who it benefited. may be no one. but it benefited by spiritual journey. the leaps i made i could not make otherwise. i would have had to wait till i was 70 years old: i could not stop while the world was moving. but then the world stopped, […]

another day at home

Monday, June 1, 2020

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It was another uneventful day at home. A small hiccup with my wife was the only anomaly. these are unpleasant but they seem necessary in retrospect. It reminds me of the hellish time i had before her operation. All that mood swing, personality disorders were linked to a medical condition. It is just amazing. however […]

the load must lead somewhere

Sunday, May 31, 2020

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Slowly i am getting used to this lockdown. it is a natural state for me. the only difference and awkwardness is the whole world got into this state with me. Even if the world will get back to life after the lockdown, my life will not change for more months. i don’t know what work […]

Getting used to lockdown

Friday, May 29, 2020

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i wonder where all this time is taking me or what is is transforming me into. today only i listened to 5 hours of book. i read 500 pages in two days. it is crazy. my body is fit with 5 hours of exercise. i have a 1.5 hour nap. meditation at night to enter […]

Reflection in lockdown

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

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After so much reflection i am coming at peace with my days in singapore. i always felt i owed everything to steve but i realize when it was my turn i have done as much life changing help to many people at my cost. i never regret to have given them, and lost in the […]

power of isolation

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

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As i contemplate on the state of affairs of the world and my own life, i wonder: is this it? is the end of my career? am i retired for good? then i read about Elon Musk. this guy is super ambitious. is he living life and me wasting it? i don’t know why i […]