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No more Ambitions!

Sunday, December 9, 2018

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As I am listening to songs of the late 90’s and early 00’s , i am getting nostalgic but i don’t miss the old days.  I just recall how I was alone in those times in Singapore trying to find my identity.  I was selfish.  I had left my mother alone at home.  But i […]

My sexuality

Sunday, December 9, 2018

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For the first time, i think, I miss my home and family while travelling. My wife had a bad mood for many years and travelling was like a breath of fresh air before. But now she too mellowed down and I miss her on travel. It is good. Before my appendix operation, I was perplexed […]

Death is there

Friday, November 23, 2018

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My father died about 32 years ago. He was around my age now. He was never a great communicator so I remember only few interactions with me. 1. He bragged to a friend of his that one day I will become a President, that was the highest position at the UNESCO where he was working […]

Lucid & excited

Saturday, November 10, 2018

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Lucid dreams yesterday put me in an upbeat mood. I know how to repeat it after watching a video on youtube. The events & backdrop cannot be changed by lucidity. However one can be aware at that moment & do something you really want. In the same line of thought I realized that one day […]

who? What for?

Friday, November 9, 2018

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Who am I? I always thought I knew the answer: a special person who was a yogi in his past life & with an important work in this life. But I’m not anywhere near doing something important although I feel its nature. All the mystical experiences I got, they must be for something, right? As […]

Who’s calling the shots?

Friday, November 9, 2018

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After last year I really got confused on who or what is guiding my life. For so long I thought visualization was what made my life happen. But the things that come in life are beyond visualization because you can’t think of them. How can we visualize something we can’t think of? Nothing I visualized […]

I dare now

Saturday, October 20, 2018

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When I was 17 years old that is 27 years ago I had my first mystical experience. Till now I had kept it a secret because I myself could not explain it still. I’m divulging it today because I think I’ve reached that stage in life where I must have the courage to stand on […]

Death while living

Thursday, September 20, 2018

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These past 3 months have been very different than the last 15 years since i started my career in Nepal. I’ve never been so jobless ever. But i was able to give full time to my idea. That too hasn’t worked out. Failure after failure. Yet I’m happy. Having succeeded so much i can afford […]

A day of melancholy

Monday, September 10, 2018

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Today i woke up with a dream of frozrn legs again and that me frustrated the whole day . I didn’t try to get rid of this feeling as i wanted to bask in it today. I allowed myself to feel melancholy because i can afford it. This is true wealth not the money to […]

2nd kind of Enlightenment reached

Friday, September 7, 2018

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The business model and system of my billion dollar idea is complete today. Wow. It has been an incredible 2 years. Now this year i must rebuild my training empire i left 10 years ago. I was born to be a teacher of life. Lately I’ve been seeing the Buddha’s image hanging around me signifying […]