These past 3 months have been very different than the last 15 years since i started my career in Nepal. I’ve never been so jobless ever. But i was able to give full time to my idea. That too hasn’t worked out. Failure after failure. Yet I’m happy. Having succeeded so much i can afford […]
Monday, September 10, 2018
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Today i woke up with a dream of frozrn legs again and that me frustrated the whole day . I didn’t try to get rid of this feeling as i wanted to bask in it today. I allowed myself to feel melancholy because i can afford it. This is true wealth not the money to […]
Friday, September 7, 2018
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The business model and system of my billion dollar idea is complete today. Wow. It has been an incredible 2 years. Now this year i must rebuild my training empire i left 10 years ago. I was born to be a teacher of life. Lately I’ve been seeing the Buddha’s image hanging around me signifying […]
Saturday, August 25, 2018
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No morning blues have occurred since months. This a a state of depression i wake to most mornings since decades. I experienced the first bout in the afternoon while on a visit to a hospital with my mother when i was 20. What seemed like many voices shouting loud told me that i couldn’t do […]
Friday, June 22, 2018
Comments Off on Finding god again
My life has taken amazing turns. Just recently after a client ended my work over email i felt really angry and even a bit hopeless and disillusioned. I thought may be my retainer package was at fault even though i knew it was his fault and it was meant to be. I even had premonitions […]
Saturday, June 9, 2018
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Does god exist ? At the beginning i thought he did. I could feel an intervention in my life always, things i could never think at that time. Why would events occur that way and why would i react that way ? I was even more ambitious because i believed there was no real god […]
Saturday, June 9, 2018
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What if i had done something differently in the past ? Life would have been different today. I look at life today. Is it what i wished it to be ? Are there still things i wish i had but i can’t have ? Am i a prick , a person who is insensitive? I […]
Tuesday, May 29, 2018
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Today was the first time I saw the sun set fully into the horizon. I felt excited like a child at 43. I guess there is a first time even at this age . Before either the sun was too bright or something else pre-occupied me just at the final drop. I used to write […]
Sunday, April 1, 2018
Comments Off on Paris : my childhood
Watching the movie “Passenger” enthralled me today. I was so in peace today. I almost struck a multi crore commission deal on my first visit. The aura of the meeting hung on me throughout the day. I just realised that my business idea is really something huge and the best kept secret. I had dreamt […]
Monday, March 12, 2018
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Back from Singapore, I return re-born. There is something in that place that always resonated inside me. Is it a coincidence only that we flew there on the day of my birth 44 years ago? It was a rigorously transformative 6 days. It seemed many many years passed upon the return. Among the many changes […]
Thursday, September 20, 2018
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