Lucid dreams yesterday put me in an upbeat mood. I know how to repeat it after watching a video on youtube. The events & backdrop cannot be changed by lucidity. However one can be aware at that moment & do something you really want. In the same line of thought I realized that one day […]
Friday, November 9, 2018
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Who am I? I always thought I knew the answer: a special person who was a yogi in his past life & with an important work in this life. But I’m not anywhere near doing something important although I feel its nature. All the mystical experiences I got, they must be for something, right? As […]
Friday, November 9, 2018
Comments Off on Who’s calling the shots?
After last year I really got confused on who or what is guiding my life. For so long I thought visualization was what made my life happen. But the things that come in life are beyond visualization because you can’t think of them. How can we visualize something we can’t think of? Nothing I visualized […]
Saturday, October 20, 2018
Comments Off on I dare now
When I was 17 years old that is 27 years ago I had my first mystical experience. Till now I had kept it a secret because I myself could not explain it still. I’m divulging it today because I think I’ve reached that stage in life where I must have the courage to stand on […]
Thursday, September 20, 2018
Comments Off on Death while living
These past 3 months have been very different than the last 15 years since i started my career in Nepal. I’ve never been so jobless ever. But i was able to give full time to my idea. That too hasn’t worked out. Failure after failure. Yet I’m happy. Having succeeded so much i can afford […]
Monday, September 10, 2018
Comments Off on A day of melancholy
Today i woke up with a dream of frozrn legs again and that me frustrated the whole day . I didn’t try to get rid of this feeling as i wanted to bask in it today. I allowed myself to feel melancholy because i can afford it. This is true wealth not the money to […]
Friday, September 7, 2018
Comments Off on 2nd kind of Enlightenment reached
The business model and system of my billion dollar idea is complete today. Wow. It has been an incredible 2 years. Now this year i must rebuild my training empire i left 10 years ago. I was born to be a teacher of life. Lately I’ve been seeing the Buddha’s image hanging around me signifying […]
Saturday, August 25, 2018
Comments Off on Morning blues gone
No morning blues have occurred since months. This a a state of depression i wake to most mornings since decades. I experienced the first bout in the afternoon while on a visit to a hospital with my mother when i was 20. What seemed like many voices shouting loud told me that i couldn’t do […]
Friday, June 22, 2018
Comments Off on Finding god again
My life has taken amazing turns. Just recently after a client ended my work over email i felt really angry and even a bit hopeless and disillusioned. I thought may be my retainer package was at fault even though i knew it was his fault and it was meant to be. I even had premonitions […]
Saturday, June 9, 2018
Comments Off on Higher self
Does god exist ? At the beginning i thought he did. I could feel an intervention in my life always, things i could never think at that time. Why would events occur that way and why would i react that way ? I was even more ambitious because i believed there was no real god […]
Saturday, November 10, 2018
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