I feel like renunciant. I feel i don’t belong to this world or to any world, except mine. I feel a pull from my inner being. I don’t abide to the rules of the world. If the world followed my rules, what would happen? i have not thought about it because i didn’t design those […]
Wednesday, January 16, 2019
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My world has changed once again but i was not aware of it until i was deep in meditation and it was revealed to me. Now I am making the necessary changes to survive in my new reality. But i just wonder how are people living without such a close connection to this higher intelligence? […]
Sunday, January 13, 2019
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Having attained the highest level of consciousness at 45, with all my life ahead of me, makes me both marvel and wonder what to do with the remaining years. I feel lethargic because i know I succeeded in all aspects of life I started with. But even if I died, i still would need to […]
Saturday, January 12, 2019
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Here I am living a life of a retired man. I didn’t want to live this life at 60, 70 or even 80. It is too important part of living to postpone it so far away and so near to death. I have always loved to stare at nothingness. In the great life that I […]
Thursday, January 3, 2019
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It seems I am back from a war and never having to go back again because i don’t like to kill people for a living, to be violent by default. My war was to try to build the first unicorn from Nepal. I worked on the idea for 2 years with the intent to become […]
Sunday, December 9, 2018
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As I am listening to songs of the late 90’s and early 00’s , i am getting nostalgic but i don’t miss the old days. I just recall how I was alone in those times in Singapore trying to find my identity. I was selfish. I had left my mother alone at home. But i […]
Sunday, December 9, 2018
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For the first time, i think, I miss my home and family while travelling. My wife had a bad mood for many years and travelling was like a breath of fresh air before. But now she too mellowed down and I miss her on travel. It is good. Before my appendix operation, I was perplexed […]
Friday, November 23, 2018
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My father died about 32 years ago. He was around my age now. He was never a great communicator so I remember only few interactions with me. 1. He bragged to a friend of his that one day I will become a President, that was the highest position at the UNESCO where he was working […]
Saturday, November 10, 2018
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Lucid dreams yesterday put me in an upbeat mood. I know how to repeat it after watching a video on youtube. The events & backdrop cannot be changed by lucidity. However one can be aware at that moment & do something you really want. In the same line of thought I realized that one day […]
Friday, November 9, 2018
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Who am I? I always thought I knew the answer: a special person who was a yogi in his past life & with an important work in this life. But I’m not anywhere near doing something important although I feel its nature. All the mystical experiences I got, they must be for something, right? As […]
Wednesday, January 16, 2019
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